weigh-in week 3

Lost 700 grams this week. Im pretty stoked with that actually. Been so sick with this horrible cold the last few days & havent been able to go to the gym so I thought this week would be terrible but im happy to see a loss instead of a gain! So this brings my total to 2.7kg in 3 weeks. No where near what I initially set out to achieve by this stage but thats ok. Im abit worried about next week being mini milestone. I was hoping to be able to run 1km but now with my chest full of crap & hardly being able to breathe I know this wont happen. It always takes me awhile to recover my breathing after being sick (and no, im not a smoker- never have been!) and I know it will take awhile to get my fitness back again but thats ok. Im very proud of how far ive come in 2 weeks so it wont take long to get back there again.

So im down to 103.1kg now which is good. So close to being under 100kg which is exciting! Ive noticed my jeans are abit looser and my work uniform feels abit more comfy, especially around the hips/tummy. I cant wait to order new uniforms for work in smaller sizes!

Ive been abit down lately, as I vaguely mentioned a few posts back. This journey is certaintly unlocking alot of hidden emotions. For so long I have been so unhappy with myself its just my normal way of thinking & feeling now and when I receive a compliment or feel happy about something its such a foreign concept that I so quickly dismiss the feeling as its 'not right' to feel that way. Im finding it very hard to grasp any sort of certainty on who I am as a person now and what I want in my life. And of course, what I deserve in life. Do I really deserve to be happy? Or am I just here to try make others happy? Does anybody even care? My head is full of such conflicting opinions on myself & my life and im beginning to feel very self-absorbed and narcissistic and again dismiss these thoughts as soon as possible because I dont have time to be thinking about this about myself. Over-analysing much???